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I have been deathly ill for over a week (ok not deathly, but it damn well feels like it). Seems like a bunch of people I know (at work and online) are also deathly ill (ok not deathly). Illness != Feeling like writing; Hence the lack of updates. Blogging is overrated anyways. It certainly doesn’t [...]

It’s been a year since we last kissed your face, and said goodbye. Not a day has gone by that we haven’t thought about you and wished somehow you could have made the journey with us. We remember you today as we always have, a sweet grumpy dog who taught us that life is equal [...]

Busy with work, reading books and real life, so posts may be spotty.

Mornings in California have become like a lucid dream in replay: 8AM, half-awake, orange fingers of sunlight poking through the scrim of the bedroom window. I hear leaf blowers, much too early I hear myself think, and the other yard work that is part of apartment living: weed wackers, the clearing of spent plants in [...]

Aboard the A320 some 75 miles out, Chicago juts straight into a sky the color of slate after miles of Midwest nothingness like some strange aberration the land has allowed to persist at the edge of winter. It was a bittersweet homecoming of sorts this weekend, attending the wedding of dear friends, seeing family and [...]

Love Song

How shall I hold my soul, that it may not
be touching yours? How shall I lift it then
above you to where other things are waiting?
Ah, gladly would I lodge it, all-forgot
with some lost thing the dark is isolating
on some remote and silent spot that, when
your depths vibrate, is not itself vibrating.

You and me — [...]

Tomorrow is Bike to Work Day in the Bay Area, although I’m not sure if I will actually participate. We’re going to see Episode II, so I’ll be leaving directly from work and it may be a drag having to put the bike on the car rack and drive it to the theatre with us. [...]

I was completely engrossed in watching SW2:AOTC this evening, when it felt as though an extremely large semi truck was driving very close to my building. Intially, I felt the floor shake, then I noticed my bookshelf was knocking against the wall. At first I thought it was my cat for some odd reason because [...]

Today was Jack’s birthday, he would have been 3 years old. We lit a candle in his memory and pigged out on junk food, which we usually did to celebrate his birthday. We gave him whatever we were having in the way of people food as his birthday treat. Though it was a bittersweet day [...]

The Pet-Loss Newsgroup and the Pet Loss web site were some of the places I started visiting after Jack died. You can read or share your thoughts with people who have undergone similar circumstances or just help those who have recently lost a pet and are still grieving.

Time passes and life changes, yet loss and the memory of a best friend leaving you all too soon stays forever it seems. It may seem strange to think that losing a pet can have such an impact on your life, but for those who do have pets, dogs especially, I think they occupy some [...]

In Loving Memory Of Jack : April 15, 1999 - November 19, 2001

I talked to my friend Dave who lives in L.A. but works up in the Palo Alto branch of the company at which I am currently employed. He told me that the new Apple Store is going to open up there tomorrow and apparently it is the shiznat. I actually would hate to work there [...]

On a very happy note, I was able to get a hold of my dear friend Tammy from (G)olden days who lives in New York City. Since the tragedy of last week, I tried to remember her contact or EMAIL addresses and after days of futile searching, it finally just came to me clear as [...]

I’ve been busy at work developing an visual editor that integrates with the Struts framework from the Apache Group, so I haven’t had time to update or post stories. To be honest, I don’t feel any compunction to add anything these days, except perhaps to focus on software engineering which is very boring indeed. There [...]

My DSL carrier, Rhythms, went officially Chapter 11 earlier this month which means that on September 10, the lights will grow dim on my glowing copper connection to the internet. However, I’ve also moved to a new apartment so I effectively haven’t had DSL since last week because Ameritech couldn’t do a straight line transfer [...]

it is so long since my heart has been with yours

shut by our mingling arms through
a darkness where new lights begin and
increase,
since your mind has walked into
my kiss as a stranger
into the streets and colours of a town-

that I have perhaps forgotten
how, always(from
these hurrying crudities
of blood and flesh) Love
coins His most gradual gesture,

and whittles life [...]

Drove around Bucktown and the area near North and Clybourn on Friday night and I was just overwhelmed by how much of it has changed in the time that I last visited that part of town. It felt like someone had plopped a large chunk of Old Orchard Mall onto the Near North Side but [...]

Just came back from my trip to the Pacific Northwest (Seattle). The journey and city felt very different from the time I went in 1995 when I was younger and looking for something much different than I am now. I am much more receptive to this small big city and it’s relatively slow pace and [...]

I spent a lot of time this weekend working on java programming of all things. I start my new gig on Monday, so I’ll have less /free/ time for the side projects on which I’ve been devoting my attention for the last week or so. I have to honestly say that working with the Xerces-Xalan [...]